December 30, 2009

Ring out the old, ring in the new

We visited my grandmother last week, for the first time with our Sam.
She is 87 years old, he is 7 months old.

She is so busy dying, he is so busy being born.

When I looked at my grandmother, so old, so tired, so confused, and then looked at my son, so young, so eager to discover, so alive, I got one of those rare lumps in my throat. You know the kind: it tells you that you're sad, but at the same time it tells you you're happy and especially lucky.

Scarily, it also made me realise that nowadays I often behave more towards the way my grandma feels than the way may son feels. Obviously not in such an extreme way, but somewhere in this year suddenly I seem to have passed that invisible but dangerous line that seperates young people from old people.

What? Hey, I'm 31!

I know. I know. You're old when you decide to be. Or, no. You're old when you decide not to keep doing new things. You're old when you stop discovering.

In 2010 I'll put a lot of effort in giving myself a huge kick up the butt. Bear with me until I find my way back please. I don't want to be old yet.

That's a start, right?

Have an exciting new year everyone, full of wonderful discoveries of all kinds.

2 comments:

A layer of chips said...

I know exactly how you feel, Dennis. It's a weird feeling, eh?

Private somewhere said...

Hi,

if I can allow myself, here's two french bands that I like,
some kinda power pop & psychedelic stuff, that maybe be you'll enjoy !
have a nice time and a good year
;)...jm



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